she`s scared because suddenly it`s truly
clear how much he really means to her

He looked at me and said,

"Do you ever feel like you're working
for something you're never going to get.
You shoot and miss kind of deal
like, no matter what you can't have it,
but that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?"
I looked at him, stared at him for a second

and replied, "Everyday..."

It's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen but it's even harder to give up when you know its everything you want

there are at least a hundred reasons why i could give up on you but you’re the one reason i keep going

:+:Hello My Beautiful Gherlies and Gents:+:

Well I would like to make some shout outs to my wonderful friends.. For always believing in me.. Because without them I would never had made it this far..

Mama: Yea you are a part of my fam. and everything. but you are more to me as a best friend than anything.. You always up in my biss. And always asking about my day which dad never does so it always makes me feel good. And I know on our "Hopey's back from vacation weeks"  we arent so good together  but it is a good explanation to that.. I mean who isnt gonna be a flippin WITCH when they are. Anyways I am glad to not only have you as my mom but also as my best friend.

Skye: Yea yea yea we have our momentoes but I am kewl with them in about 5 minutes. Well it might take 30 but still.. I really have been able to depend on you with anything I needed to.. A few tymes it has been risky but I know that you are always by my side.. Helping me get through my times every day! And I really appreciate it.. And yea when we have our momentoes we arent so nice.. But that is what maybe once a month. And I will accept that we wont always get along.. Skye you are a tremendous gift from god..  I love you my dear.

Brittany: I dont know where to start.. We are both going through incredibly hard tymes.. But as long as we depend on each other and have faith in god.. We will be good by the grace of god. I know that when a door closes... that we will be struggling.... but i promise you as soon as that door has closed.. A better one will open in a bit of time. I mean yea we are both gonna have difficulties in our life with crap... But as long as we stick together and grow with our relationship as friends... We will get through it with every bit of happiness coming through us. I love you. Be strong.

Alex: Lets just say that when we are together..... It is awesome.. Just as long as we arent cranky and tired.. LoL anyways.. I am glad that we have dealt with our differences and became friends again for the 20000th time.. I love you girl.. I am so happy god has a place in my heart just for you. I am thankful I see you in my classes everyday and talk those amazing conversations with you.. Your great. I am glad to have you as a great friend.

JeriLynn: Yea we had lots n lots of problems.. But some how we worked it out.. Yea everyone thinks you are all dramatic and crap.. But when you really get to know someone like you.. You are so amazing.. And I know it took me 3 months of you being gone.. to actually try to not start crap with you and just be cool.. and have normal conversations.. and know that I really know the real JL your so amazing if not more... I love you and Miss you much!

Sarah: We just met i kno i  kno.. But girl you lil suthern girl accent roxx.. I love you to death chikkie. We are already like super close. i feel like we have known each other for years and years. Ya kno Ya kno.. Well I cant wait to start a relationship of friends with you.. I love you gherlie..

Tara: Yea we have had lots of differences.. But I think we are finally getting used to each other.. I am glad that we have finally talked everything out and everything is finally kewl.. I cant wait to hang out more n more.. I love you.

Delena: I met you in 6th grade but now its 8th and I finally took the chance to get to know you.. Your so awesome girl. I cant wait to start hanging with you. I know that it took me lots n lots of drama drama drama to find true friends.. But it was worth every bit of it b/c know I got great friends.. With out the drama you see. I love you girl.

Zacharie: Your the best brother i have had.. the only one too.. I mean what more could I ask for. I wouldnt want another one b/c the one I have is awesome..  I mean you are so great to me.. N I wish we were still the great close brother n sister pals we used to be but we arent. and i am willing to accept that b/c just because we arent hand n hand friends. I know you will never stop loving me and it will always be the same amount of love as it always was even though  you dont show it as much anymore. i love you bubba.. You are a big part of my life. <33

Noah: Yea we have grown apart but I still love you.. There is not a day I dont think about you. I hope that we never forget our great summer growing from each other. <33 you.

Seth: Yea sometimes you get on my last nerve. But I deal with the annoyingness and look at the good part and that is that you will never stop loving me and always be there for me no matter what. If I had tripped and fall you would make sure that I was picked up without a scratch and thats what I llike about you. Love you.

Tucker: aww man your incredible. Last year we were inseperable. And now we aer just kinda blah blah but man I love you. There is not one day that doesnt go by that I dont think haha JABOUTI! LoL I hope we become better friends again.. I love you JABOUTI!

I’m not saying I don't like you, cause believe me, I do. It's just, I don't feel like chasing after you.

Well thats it.. I gtg..

Alyssa

Hello Gorgeous Babes

Well right about now I am watching I know what you did last summer with Kortney Pope. It is scary as H**L WOAH Scary! SCARY!

OMFG I AM gonna cry it is like really and truely that scary! OMFG!!!!!

Anyhoo I might be going to the mall tomm with Brittany Katie me  n Kortney! That should be fun! Then some club that is only for Teens! So that should be fun. Kortney is staying the night tomm night too.. Yay! I think she leaves Monday. Because she has another week of fall break! She goes to  an all around school. How cool..

Well this movie is over.. It was a great movie.. Scared me so bad. But I am going to go.

Alyssa Poo

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Well I am getting my room clean right now so I can hang out with some of my friend a rooskas! Yes!  HALALUJAH! I gtg babes!

i LOVE you

Alyssa

~Hello gorgeous~

I get to go to the mall today with someone I haven't hung out with in a very long time. ALEX! (griffith) I am very happy.  I have to get a wedding dress today.. My dance teacher (Jennifer) is having a wedding tomorrow and I have to go! (because I want to not just because I have to) Anyways. I have to go get ready. SoO I hope everyone's break is going good! Well not good... GREAT!

I am really glad that I got to hang out with my friends this week.. I hadn't seen Brittany in a while.. And  I haven't hung out with Alex in forever. I might even get to see Kortney Pope tomorrow at the Wedding YIPPEE! Skye and I hung out too this week. And I got to see my other friends at Haley's party, but I went home early. I had a blast this week... And I can't wait until Sunday. I am hoping that Alex, Brittany and Skye go next Saturday with me!! I guess I will just have to ask and see.

( %)Well gtg.. GOD BLESS!(%)

*&*RiP HoPe DiANa bROwnlOW*&*

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Hey Beauty*ful

So I just got home... Alex had to go home.. But Skye might spend the night tonight. She  has to ask?? I got some new clothes today. And a dress for tomm.. ( the wedding ) I think it's cute... BUT A BLACK DRESS for a WEDDING!!!! oKK..... ANYWAYS. I got this cute cute SO cute purse... Well my mom got a black one and Alex got the same one as me.. BUT IT WAS ONLY  $1.50!!!!! h0w great as that... But I went to STARBUCKS... MUMMM YUMMY YUMMY!!!!!

So I get to see Brittany again SUNDAY!!!! hahahahaha be jealous... be jealous.. HAHAHAHAHA jk jk!!! OMG I can't until school to start again.. I am like bouncing off the walls. I mean I am not literally but u know what I mean.. OMG I wish that I could've had Alex over tonight.. But it is ok maybe another night!!!! B.t.w. Alex it was so much fun hanging out with you today.. You were such a B L A S T  today! I love you HORSEY! Anyways. So does anyone think when we go back to school that we will have a butt load of HOMEWORK!! Hope not.. That will suck. Well I gtg.  <3

<#> Alyssa <#>

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So I am talking to Brittany on text message. Bored out of my mind thinking WHEN IS SKYE GONNA CALL ME BACK!  Well I hope she can come.. Aww.. Brittany I am so happy for her.. She is so in LOVE! How cute is that! I wish the guy I loved... LOVED me!  But not everything is how we want it to be. LoL!

 I talked to TERESA today... And SYD! It was great. We talked for at least FOREVER!  but i had company so i needed to go! anyh00. I forgot to talk about my new mini skirt. it is absolutely dazzling. Its amazingly CUTE! anyhoo. SoO I am going to go eat some wonderful supper.

.($).Leave me Dazzling Comments of Love.($).

HeLlO my SwEet lil MunTcHkiNS

Yesterday was so much fun. Lets start from the beginning.

Tuesday: Skye, Brittany and I went to Opry Mills. We went to Starucks first because I was like OMFG i need Starbucks. Then we went and tried on clothes that were to big for us and took crazy pictures.. lol. It was FUN! And then we ate. We all went to Spencers and I got so scared. And then I fell trying to sit down on thi big huge thing.. We walked around the thing like 4 or 5 times. LoL made wishes.. Stole some pennies out of the river thing where you make wishes and made more.. Skye then slapped me n brittany and said STOP STEALIN OtHER PPLS WISHES.. LoL We went home AFTER ABOUT 6 HOURS OF BEING THERE..

We went and got our N A I L S done... IT WAS F U N ! !

They ended up on staying the night..  We  prank called my dance friends.. And Brittanys friends. We watched some movies.. Then me n brittany decided to egg n roll someone's house.. Well everyone's we wanted to do was either to far away or we didnt know where they lived. So we just did my house to have fun with it.. Well while we were just rollin away.. We hear a c a r. So we ran and dunk down by the boat. Well. Brittany looked at it and IT WAS A P O L I C E car. we FREAKED.  We thought it had stopped. And we were like lets go to the back. Well i thought if we did then he would see us and catch us. So I was like be quiet. And we almost pee'd in our pants.. Then found out he never stopped in the first place.. We were so happy..

NEXT DAY: My dad wakes me up and jerks me and says go outside and clean the mess. WeLL i was so completely shocked that he was mad.. because my mom thought it was completely H I L A R I O U S.  So i  was cleaning and skye wakes up and helps me clean the rest. Well after that about 30 minutes later Brittany wakes up.  We then just hung out being very bored.

My granma then took me n brittany to doctor with her.. ME N BRITTANY HAD A B L A S T. I WISH SKYE WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE THOUGH!!!!!  anyhoo. Then we went to walmart.. and acted like retards.. We went to Big APPLE B U F F E T. It was good. Then me n Brittany Stoned our PHONES..

Well I gtg.. I am gonna put P I C T U R E S on here later.

P.S. I cant wait until SUNDAY Brittany!!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!

*Skye*Brittany*Alex* I LOVE YALL!!!!!!

there are things that you don't want to happen
but you have to accept
there are things you don't want to know
but you have to learn
and there are people you can't live without
but you have to let go